And it continues

New Week!! lets find new ways to fight cancer!!

I am encouraged to see my sister looking better everyday...sometimes I look at her and can't believe she has stage 4 cancer...she looks amazing!! Rachel has been getting out to church as much as she can...whenever she can. I think this is a wonderful testimony to her relationship with the Lord. Rachel sets the bar high for all of us and when we say we are to busy or too tired or too sick to get involved in our church.

Mom is ever strong but weak at the same time. Raising the boys is hard on her but I also think it is teaching her new ways to look to the Lord for strength. Dane is ever a challenge but Mom seems to show him God's love in disciplining him in a loving way. Sometimes it just seems easier to let the boys get away with stuff then to stand up to them and set boundaries for them. Please pray that Mom will set Godly boundaries for the boys and they will someday look back and see the love, time and patience Mom and Rachel have put into raising them. Another great example for us to see when we just don't feel like taking the time to discipline our children.

I just had a wonderful weekend. My Mother and sister -in-law helped me host a baby shower for my brother-in-laws wife Christina. It was a wonderful morning with lots of sun!!! Today I was able to go to church and fellowship and cry... I always seem to cry at church because it is one of the few places that slows me down and I hear the Word of the Lord spoken so clearly. I can't escape there... I have to feel what is going on in my heart and the Lord always speaks to me. So the rest of the day was spent either crying or making myself so busy I did not have time to think about crying.

Having a sister sick with cancer is so heartbreaking!! I remember hearing about people who had cancer and I would pray for them, if I remembered, but they were always a friend of a friend of a friend...Never my sister. Rachel and I are suppose to grow old together and sit on the front porch in rocking chairs talking about the old times!! It can't be MY sister who has cancer but it is and I can't seem to find the rhyme or reason for it right now. However, I will go to the Lord continually and ask Him to open my eyes to see life the way He sees things. I will continually seek Him through my pain and know that He is working in ever aspect of Rachel's cancer.

My Dad...I love him so much!!! He has such focus and passion and A.D.D!!! He loves the Lord so much and loves Rachel. Growing up I never questioned my Dad's love for me because he was always good at making me feel safe in his love. Dad is continuing to show Rachel love by researching ever aspect of her cancer, water, juicer, bed and so forth. He is standing by her when she is sick and throwing up in the kitchen trash can right after her Vitamin C infusions. Dad is ready at the drop of a hat to take Rachel to any appointment she needs to be taken. Dad's love flows out of him for Rachel and I love seeing it!! What an amazing Dad I have!

Food for Rachel?? Well, sadly Rachel's taste buds are wacky right now and most everything tastes gross to her. She is also nauseous most of the time and that does not help her want to eat. But she does enjoy her Sauteed Spinach, Poached egg and quinoa grains. Please pray for Rachel in this area.